Hi. I need to talk about this and I don't think the other forum that I normally post in would be an appropriate place. I have never been in a real relationship in my entire life. There have been a few times but nothing real. I want to be intimately close with someone both emotionally and physically, but I am scared to death of physical intimacy. I have DID and that just severely complicates this. Some of the others here like being sexual and enjoy it emensly. But when they do I can feel it in my body and it freaks me out. It freaks me out even more that the teens here are heterosexual and I am not. They are very hormonal teens and they are very sexually active but only with each other inside. But still I can feel it all the time and it freaks me out. I am not sure how to get myself ok with this and I don't even know if I can. I am very confused about it all. I want physical intimacy but just the thought of it really freaks me out. How can that even be possible. I am just really confused and I wish I knew how to help myself but I don't. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. Thanks.

Cris