I have been up, down and all around.
I have tried to be strong. I have tried to put aside my feelings and just "be".
I have tried to support those here who are also going through such difficult times.
I wanted to say I am sorry that at times I seem to be out of control and needy.
I am usually able to stay safe and in control.
Lately that is not happening.

I am sorry I haven't been able to be more encouraging to others who are hurting and going through their issues and struggles.

I am sorry @ times I seem aggressive and yet weak.
I am sorry to everyone who has been there for me when I could not return the favor when you were in need because I couldn't see past my own disgusting, dirty soul.

I AM SO SORRY!