thanks guys, i think you are right. the other issue around this is to do with the t: i used to have a fantastic t, who was cbt, but really didn't deal with suicidal behaviour so he referred me to a colleague who was equally fantastic. she also dealt with sexual issues so when this problem first became an issue, i saw her about it. since then, i had a friend who was in trouble (possible borderline) and needed talk therapy asap, so i put her in touch with the second t. i've since cut off contact with this friend (long story, but i know i did the right thing) - i assume she's still under this t - would it be a conflict of interests if i went to the same t as her? even if it was about something unrelated?