Hang in there Elysium...

What you said is almost exactly like my life. I only seem to notice the things that are missing (boyfriend/husband, children, career, etc.) and not the things I have (food, electricity, roof over my head, etc.). Somedays it is okay, and sometimes it hurts really bad...feels like there is a gaping void in my life and I don't know how to fill it. Also feel guilty about feeling bad, because I feel like I have no right to be. Yuck, terrible vicious cycle...

I know this is easier said than done, but try to take care of yourself right now, even if you don't really feel like it. Maybe rent a funny movie, or take a walk in the park, or have your favorite food for dinner. These things often make me feel better, or at least not any worse!

Hope things get better for you soon!!