Gotta weigh the pros and cons and only you can do that. Admitting you have a problem is the hard part because then you can get help. If you want to self medicate, you know the consequeses and how you feel those days you are out of your happy pills. Ever been in a room full of drunk high people when you were sober? Didn't they look or act with bad judgement? It is about reempowering yourself. It is about finding good things to take place of self medicating. Hobbies stuff like that. Hope this helps some. Safe hugs!