Maybe it's a reaction formation sort of defense mechanism. It could be a way to protect you from the hurt. Also you are right about worrying about safe sex. Hope you used protection. Take care.

<font color=blue>Peace to you.
CQ</font color=blue>

<font color=red>"The worst sin toward our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them: that's the essense of inhumanity." George Bernard Shaw (1856 - 1950), "The Devil's Disciple" (1901), act II.</font color=red>