Thanks Ruffy. It is a lonely place. That pit from which we can't be reached. Knowing we are not the only one provides some comfort from the madness. I don't know about you but often when I am so deep down and those around seem unconvinced I question if I somehow put myself there. Then when the light comes in and I see my life through a different set of lenses and my steps are lighter and my heart feels the flutter of joy, I know this is the life I would choose to see and live everyday. If it were my choice.... days like to day would be my everyday.

I imagine more or less this is how people without this curse live and feel everyday. I remember times in my life when days like this were more common place to me too. Moving though the moments of the day with ease. Walking without the weight shrinking me or the fears inhibiting me.

Laying on the lawn today after weeding in the garden I was simply enjoying the sunshine on my face. No worries. No anxiety. I noticed in that moment that my mouth was lifted at the corners. A slight smile had replaced the usual saging lifelessness that the constant exhaustion always stole from me.

I was even singing today. Songs of praise and joy and gratitude came spontaneously from my lips. No need today to force the affirmations I would otherwise rely on to pull myself out of a meltdown. Free singing from the heart. It was heavenly. Worthy of childlike giggling.

Hope tomorrow blesses me with more of the same. May you too have the gift of a respite from the pit soon.

You are never alone ruffy. We will alway share the knowing and let that be some comfort through the coping. Blessings.