Things are fast falling apart in my house. We have never had any real problems before except my dad has a temper. Some of this I have mentioned before.

Yesterday his mother went into the hospital because she is terminal (Parkinson's) and not coming home.

Last night my dog got ahold of some ambien and we had to call poison control...(Two weeks ago our female dog died at age 13).

My dad ( I mentioned this earlier) is having problems at work that are creating financial stress for all of us. He is now getting chest pains (he doesn't have anxiety problems).

My mom's mother was in the hospital for cellulitis about 2 months ago and then came here to be taken care of.

In the mean time I am trying to adjust to my parents' new house - isolated and not like where I grew up...

(Have not lived here since they moved) while dealing with all of what happened to me to land me on this site...being the victim of a series of incidents carried out by someone I became involved with, not knowing his background (last May through this past Jan). He victimized and threatened me and my family repeatedly and I had to go through multiple police interviews. I had never even been in a police dept. before that . I never did anything wrong.

Trust was lost along the way. For a while I believed him instead of my family.

I was his 10th "victim"...I held it together until January. He destroyed my family and my feelings of safety and control.

I grew up in a small town and never saw it coming. I was sheltered from things.

All of this is causing health problems and mental health issues...everything is snowballing.

It just keeps getting worse and worse and I don't know where to turn - except therapy.

My parents are both emotionally depleted (mom has been upset since the move) and I am an hour away from all of the things that used to cheer me up (people, places, friends, relatives)...

They are trying to take care of me, get me food when I don't have the energy, driving me to the doctor, letting me "rest".

Another member said - your home should be your sanctuary. How can I find peace in all of this?

I am trying to untie a large, ridiculous knot all by myself.

I have never been so overwhelmed in my life. I usually take things one at a time and I was doing that until January. One police interview at a time, one exam at a time, one migraine at a time...I had good days and bad until I had to look at him in court.

I am sorry to ramble but I don't no what to do or where to start.

Everything is falling apart. Literally, it's not just me.

I was told it is how we react to things not what happens, but the 8 months of stuff with that guy pushed me (aside from family problems) to a point where I could not handle things.

My family used to be really close, financially secure, happy, and in a home we loved dearly.

Things were simple - get up, go through the day, talk to neighbors, go out with friends, go to classes, go to work, go shopping, hang out with family, enjoy holidays and vacations....

I am sorry this is so long...

I can't make sense of any of this and I feel like I am "stuck" in limbo...nothing is "the same", nothing is "normal".