Thanks for the replies.
Just to clarify. I know that I am depressed.
I've already been through this before and have been diagnosed with Major Depression.
This is my second bout with it and has lasted the past a year and a half.
I'm just getting to the point of total disconnect and feels as if this will be my struggle for life. Just want to have hope and look forward to life.
I know that until I fix this, I will never be able to live a happy life.
And if you can't live a happy life, well what's the point?