psyclox, please dont ever think you are alone. I know how you feel. Ive wanted to disapear and not ever have to face anything. Ive hidden under blankets, tried to run away, tried to make myself switch off and yet Im still here. It does get better. It sounds to me like you are at the bottom but you need to reach out to those around you who care and tell them. Can you say to someone who matters " can you help me please? Im in a bad way and need support?" You are not on your own, there is always someone who can help. But please dont give up, dont end your struggle. You gotta keep going and keep trying and one day you are going to be on top again and feel so proud of yourself for getting there.

Im going to be sending you warmth and hope. Its coming in a hige parcel, look out for it.

Lots of love

All the girls