Last night I couldn't fall asleep very well. My stupid crazy head wouldn't shut up! Only 2 more days till I see the BHS&pdoc&I'm scared. My cousin is 18&recently DX'd with BP2&she missed over 3months of work&school while gettin her meds right. If I still lived@home that'd be fine but I have2pay the bills&I don't want2b missing work. I'm gonna take a week off from work so I get paid to get help.
Anyway, last night I was manic. I couldn't stop talking&really I probably sounded crazy. My fiance kept telling me he didn't know what I was talking about cuz I was talking so fast. I got mad cuz I felt he wasn't listening so we ended up arguing for 2 hours about my mind&how he doesn't want me2take anything but he also doesn't want me to be this way. It was mean but I told him that if he couldn't stop being a brat about me getting help I would go stay with my grandmother.....I'm dead tired today, have to work a long shift, and my mind is racing, I'm shaky, my palms are sweaty&I feel like I am going to vomit.