Thanks for sharing, I know it is personal.
I am terrified!
My gf really wants me to go. I haven't ever discussed it w/ my T but I am sure soon in T it is going to come up as we dig deeper into my past.
I really know it is healthy to get a check up but the torment it causes in my mind "just thinking" about it is more then I can manage.
Thanks for sharing though. It means a lot to know I am not a freak