Its been awhile since posting, about a month, and have been down, not so much depressed really, sort of blank , dont know if that makes sense to anyone... outside looking in sums it up pretty well, lonely... sounds pathetic? Here i hope to find some others with which to talk with, mutual support, as i ask for this i might not be so great at it myself...im not even sure if anyone remembers me!! Will try to be more consistant in reading and writing posts, need to be more connected to others... take care