(((((((((((Psyclox)))))))))))))
I feel so bad that you're feeling this way.
I want to give you RL hugs and look at you in the eyes and tell you everything is going to be okay.
It will be! I know it doesn't seem like it and I've totally been there where you are but I am here now and it's not like that anymore.
You WILL work through this. I promise.
Don't give up on yourself or on your life, please.

I hope you don't try to OD or anything else that will harm you. You need lots of hugs and love.
((((((((((Psyclox))))))))))))