I am tired and worn out. Meds are holding their course with adjustments here and there as the rapid cycling and insomnia are back; going to T weekly now. Life has been coming up with one doozy after another, one problem after another, with what seems no end in sight. Most things that I have been working on or even touched lately are not turning out the way they should; though with good intentions, what I'm doing is not working. So frustrating. I am glad that I only signed up for one class this summer but I am struggling there too.

I am disappointed in not being able to handle things better but I am doing my best and I honestly don't know what to do differently. However, I do know to keep doing what you're doing and to expect a different result, is pointless. Something needs to change.

To top it off, I miss friends and family. The isolation is setting in and so is depression now added to the grief of their losses. Added to that, for some reason, I miss dating, where this came from I have no idea but it's been mulling over in my mind too. As if I have time for this.

I guess overall it's a feeling of being worn out and isolated from taking care of others and from the BP, being lonely and unfulfilled. I guess I just needed to vent and appreciate some kind folks listening. Thanks for your patience. -Fresia