Why does everything have to feel so bad lately? I should be so happy at this point, I'm 26 weeks pregnant. As selfish as this sounds, the weight gain is really getting me down lately. I know it's just temporary, and I fully intend on getting my figure back afterwards, it's just hard because none of my pants and some shirts don't fit now and lately it's just helping to fuel my depression. I feel like a horrible person for feeling that way, plus a failure of a mother already. How could someone who's going to have a child care so much about a few extra temporary pounds? Has anyone else had these feelings and been able to lose the weight afterwards? What is wrong with me?
No one around me even understands, or wants to. I hate sounding like a loser on these forums, but I have nowhere else to turn. I'm alone again tonight. All I can think about is horrible things to do to myself after my son is born and safe with his father. He doesn't need me anyway. I'm sorry if I'm bothering anyone, I should just go away now. Everything is so black, no matter what I do.
I just want to wake up happy again. Will the rain ever stop pouring?