I'm so sorry to hear you're battling. Please explain your background a bit more (age, gender..)

I think you just need to be patient. Get to know your body and physical desires alone first. There's no rush to be physically intimate. And there are definitely people out there that will share your sentiments on the issue. I feel there needs to be trust and love in a relationship before considering to get physically intimate; this is especially true if it is your first time with another person.

In the mean time, spend time getting to know your body alone - there's no rush.
Look after yourself!