I'm 31 and I've only been once - about 11 years ago right before I got married. It was horrible for me - I completely flipped out - and I don't plan to ever go back. So yes, I think I can understand a little of how you feel. I'm sorry it's so hard.

The GYN I saw said I had some physical abnormalities and as I've never had children or any type of surgery, the only thing to really explain it is my past. As I understand it, it is unusual, but it can happen. I hope I didn't scare you, but I wanted to be honest.