I've been in one real relationship, but it was extremely long-term and went off-and-on for a while. When I was in the relationship, I slowly started to feel better, but now I don't know. I think the only reason that gave me any real satisfaction is because I felt like I was proving something to myself by having a partner more physically attractive than me, a sort of self-gratification. Which is a very ugly thing to do. I think everyone has something that kind of sparks self-worth in themselves, and maybe you just haven't found your personal outlet yet.