i hear you forever&always.

i have felt things similar to you. but i just wanted to say that there are other ways out there to cope with stress and difficult feelings. you are not stupid, you are hurting... it's not wrong to feel what you feel, but you deserve to feel better! you can! it helps to have support, but you have to make the call to stop hurting yourself... and try to see what works else for you. i know it can be hard. cutting has helped me get through a lot, but so have other healthy ways of coping. try looking through some of the sticky threads on the SI forum, there are some neat suggestions sometimes.

i hope you take care! stay safe, if you can. i'll be sending you some positive energy.