The mother I want to default to would just tolerate it, allow her to go on her merrily way, jobless or not, accountable or not, treated/medicated or not...

Then...I'd fall apart myself. Don't think that's the way it should be though.

So, I fight through the frustration, the pain, and keep myself from falling off the edge sometimes.

Once I get my youngest off to college next year, I'll be in a better place to cope with oldest...if she's around til then...