Bluerose, I agree with what everyone else has said here, that you should end it with this guy as soon as possible. Believe me, I do understand that it can be extremely painful to do this, but it will be much better for you in the long run. It makes me so angry when I read how so-called doctors can abuse their patients in such a harmful way. It may feel like he is helping you, but this relationship will only devastate you. I understand all too well how therapists can be so appealing, especially if you are a female and this is the only male in your life that will give you the time of day... but it should never cross the boundary as your therapist has done with you. Please get away from him and find someone who can truly help you... you deserve that!