SJ and Others ~
I have been going to the Gyn since I became sexually active, I guess you could say when I permitted it to happen rather. And that was just before I was 18 and so I waited just to when i became 18 to go since I didnt have to have my parents there. I am 37 now. I still go every year. All those years I did feel very uncomfortable. Just 2 years ago , I felt confident enough to talk to my GYN about things. That when he was doing the procedure itself it bothered me big time. I mean I couldnt relax like I was supposed to , it hurt, i cried, and he was great about it. He stopped everything. Sat me up and we talked thru things thoroughly. The plan was that he was going to talk me thru everything , explain what he was doing , how it was going to prolly feel, and at any point all I had to do was to say stop and he would stop. He gave me complete control . I want to pass this on to you and any others here that may need this to help them thru . Because taking control of your body , means taking care of it too. YOU and your body deserve the care , respect and love that it never got with your abuser(s). Please just think about this. I'm thinking of you too. Take care~

Hugz~
Bethy