I told Richard how I felt and that it was doing my head in that his feelings had changed.. His reply was bascially "you should have snapped me up when you had the chance"..
So it's over before it even really began and I just want to cry.. what on earth made me think that I would be happy again.. I was falling in love...

I was happy with myself until he came along... I didn't want him and then I did.. ad now I am depressed that I missed what could have been good...
I know I don't need the headaches of it going on and one.. I'd just get more hurt.. easier to just cut all ties now.

I know a relationship wouldn't make me happy... but just being with him, cuddling, kissing, talking and being there made me feel good..