I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through or is going through a similar situation....
I'm 42 years old. I knew from the time I was 13 that I was attracted to both males and females. My first sexual experiences were with girls. But I was raise in a christian home, and a christian school where being gay was just wrong. I actually thought I was crazy. I didn't know there was such a thing as being bi-sexual. I thought you were either gay or straight. So of course, at 13, and living a very sheltered life, I thought for sure I was crazy.
Through my life, and all my relationships, I've never had a satisfying sex life. Sex did feel good, but I never had my "moment" so to speak. I grew to understand or believe that I was bi-sexual, but primarily straight. I never had a relationship with a woman, only "friends with benefits" type of thing. I've never been able to make a marriage or any male/female relationship work.
Now I've met an amazing woman, who actually swept me off my feet. I couldn't believe it when I realized that I had fallen in love with her. And, miracle of miracles, my sex life is amazing.
I'm starting to think that I'm bi but primarily gay, and that I should have been all along. I'm thinking that all those wasted years and relationships were due to the fact that I couldn't see myself for who I really was all those years due to my upbringing. Right now, I can't even imagine going back to dating men, it almost seems foreign.
Am I crazy now? Was I crazy then? Or am I just completely confused????
Anyone??