I'm primarily straight, with some bi tendencies. When I was emotionally unstable and really looking for someone to love and hold me, I happened to meet this most amazing woman. We just seemed to click. What started out as friends, became more over time. And I was still seeing my boyfriend at the time. Yes, my libido during that relationship was immense. The emotional "click" was on another level. At times I still miss it, especially as my boyfriend eventually found out, he told my parents, friends, everyone...! I made peace with that fact, because I believed I'd met my soul mate. I was prepared to give up everything.
At the end of the day it was just a rocky relationship though. She suffered form BP, so one minute the relationship was on and then it was off. I tried to OD when it was FINALLY over.
Sometimes I long for that kind of intensity in my life. Right now I'm back with my boyfriend though. It just seems "right". But I sometimes go through guilt, not sure if I'm following my heart.

I must say this is the only woman i'd ever been with. I've never before or since looked at a woman and thought of her in a sexual way. We started as friends and eventually the friendship bond just became more