I know what you mean, it's terrible that you're going through this right now...

You're in my thoughts and prayers sugahorse

Hang in there, and try to find some comfort and calm in the knowledge that's it's temporary, meditation is a good idea. It doesn't have to be anything hectic...
sometimes I close my eyes, picture an old witch's broom sweeping away all the muck in my head, (if this is 2 hard, I leave 1 dominant thought 2 remain) and will different parts of my body to relax, starting with my toes, and working my way up...
Maybe you could give this a try...

Please try to NOT stress about things you have no control over, i.e future pdoc appt. future impression of and future relationship with pdoc. These are unnecessary stressers that are skyrocketing your anxiety... Please try to divert your energy...
Hope you feel better soon.

((((HUGS)))) xoxo