You're wAy stronger than you're giving yourself credit for!
You've come sO far, made sO much progress, please don't give up now.
You're gonna jump this hurdle, just like you've jumped the others. You might feel hopeless and worn out, but you have not been defeated!

...you can have sum of my mania if u like, I got loads right now, and I have awesome experiences, they outweigh the negative by FAR...
confidence, energy,euphoria,brilliance,hopefulness: to name but a few things I'm feeling right now...
You are
NOT ALONE...please remember that
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