(((MARYJANE))) SORRY YOUR HAVING SUCH AN AWFUL WEEK!! I, too, self medicate but that doesnt make it right or okay. My new pdoc took me off all the anxiety meds I was on when I first started going to him. So now when my anxiety goes up I just pop a xanax or oxazepam and I know he wanted me off of them for a reason but I cant do the constantly anxious feelings in my stomach and my chest. I also tend to self medicate with alcohol but Im trying to quit that because alcohol and meds dont mix. Anyways, I'm sorry your in such a bad place. I hope you start feeling better soon!!