Well, I have mentioned in other posts I'm looking for a new pdoc. Think mine doesn't understand me when I say SEVER DEPRESSION. Anyway, in one last, vain attempt, I sent her a mail to see how long she would take to reply, if she cares or if she has any suggestions.

Well, she tried to phone me 15 minutes ago and I was too scared to answer the phone - WTF?? I see she sent a mail that she'd try phone again, I haven't listened to the voice message. I don't know what it is with me?!?

Now her e-mail reads that I should try stop the AD when it runs out - then I'll only be on 400mg Epilim (Sodium Valporate) and anti-anxiety tabs as needed.

ARG - I just don't want to make decisions, I don't know what to do, I feel like running away from the whole thing!!!