Hi crying,

I have sort of been in the place where you are too ... mainly when I was angry with my mother because of her apparent indifference towards me. I was in effect saying to her "I hate you, don't leave me..." ... (No, I haven't read the book, but I intend to). The result was, not surprisingly, she became more distant and uncaring, and threw me out.

You are far from stupid, crying. Before you do or say something that is likely, from your experience, to result in negative behaviour from others, try the HALT technique (from another board ... pm me if you want). You CAN change your behaviour, and still be you. The real you is still a work in progress, like with all of us.

{{{{Crying}}}}

Fuzzy