honestly I didnt mean for that to come off as he is controlling my life. He just doesnt want me on this website because of me ranting about him. He thinks its unhealthy. And I think that once we have insurance and im able to find a therapist open late I will be able to go to therapy. i hope at least. I guess I am just used to him making all the decisions and have come to peace with it because other than that I have a very happy life. In fact I feel guilty even making it seem other wise at all. I just want access to this website. Well, that and the ability to go to Bath and Body Works and Victoria's Secret semi-annual sales.