I want to stop taking my meds so I can truely be me. The way I was born. And also to see how sick I'd get or if I'd get sick at all.
And I am really pissed off about having to take all these meds.
And doubely mad that my mom won't let me stop meds. Even if I wanted to hide not taking meds--she would know. She can now recognize the withdrawl symptoms, especaily the insomnia and nausea. I am an adult and she treats me like a mentally ill child.
When I was living alone, I could do whatever the **** I wanted--cut myself, stop meds, ride my bike on dangerous roads, get up early without critisism. Also, now my every mood, action, or inaction is scrutinzed and/or controled on a daily basis.
Also I feel a lot of pressure to take my meds from my pdoc,T and my best friend (who is not mentally ill).
Is all that crazy or can anyone understand my postion?