I understand not wanting to take your meds but its not the best idea. I hate the lethargic feeling of geodon and would also like to see who I am off medications but theres a reason we take them in the first place. For me, it wouldnt be worth it to find out because I know I will end up in a deep depression or horrible manic episode. I love my husband and kids too much to not take my meds.

And your mom only loves you and wants whats best for you. Same for your pdoc, T and best friend. Let them look out for you because sometimes we dont do such a good job of that ourselves. Good luck and well wishes!