When I was living alone, I could do whatever the **** I wanted--cut myself, stop meds, ride my bike on dangerous roads, get up early without critisism.

And that was better? You would want to go back to all that?

I get the hassle of taking meds...no, I'm not in the same boat, but I hated taking antibiotics and that was only for 10 days!! But I knew that if I didn't, I would get worse AND they might not ever work again for me..so subsequent treatment might be worse.

Does the "truely being me" allow peace, comfort, and the ability of self control the majority of the time?

Just wondering if these were some things you may have already asked yourself.