I am so glad I went today. Went to see a BHS who then sent me to a crisis care place so I could get started on meds. Saw a psychiatrist&he says I am BP1. I'm starting@25mg of lamictal&in a week it'll be50mg &then2weeks after that its up to100mg. Also have clonazepam for anxiety. Took 1dose and already feeling like my brain is not all manic. Or depressed. But I'm not a zombie either. Hopefully this gets better from here on out.