I understand your frustration, Berries. Wanting to be the way we were before we became ill - I think almost everyone with mental illness has wanted that at some point. However, for most people, this is not a reality. We really can't go back to exactly how we were before mental illness struck.

For most people, stopping medication is a bad thing. I stopped all medications at one point and triggered my first manic episode, in which I was hardly connected to reality.

We are on our meds for a reason - to help us feel as good as we can possibly feel. If we had a high blood pressure, we would take medication to help combat that. Mental illness is no different. Sometimes it can be a hassle to remember meds every day, but it's worth it to be mentally healthy.