Sometimes it's the best thing we can do for ourselves is to just leave everything & start over, but it depends on if all your problems are from that stupidity & not from other things from the past. I found that I can't run away from some things, but it was the best thing I ever did was to move 2200 miles away from my husband. I had no family & my daughter had already moved away (1/2 the distance between us).

Much of my problems came from being married to my husband (he wasn't physically abusive but just had no idea of how to take care of a family when it was all his responsibility). I couldn't live with someone I didn't trust to take care of me financially when I wasn't able...now I just have to force myself to take care of everything & it's a lot less stressful than living with someone I kept trying to trust.

You really don't need to deal with all that crap as it seems that is all that everyone is piling onto you.

Guess the question would be???? What are the causes of your panic attacks & how would you handle your panic attacks when you live alone with no one around you when they hit?

I have had times when depersonalization hit me when I was out shopping......I was able to pay for my groceries & head home.....it got better at quickly, so it wasn't anything that hit for a long period of time, but it was scary. For me living alone with 6 dogs & a house with things that break means that I have to take care of everything, so it forces me at times to be more functional than I would be when I was living with my husband & could allow myself to not function because I thought that he would take care of things. It's more pressure at times, but it feels so much better to be alone. One must weigh out all the pro's & con's before doing it however to make sure your decision is really the best one for your situation.