Special K
I definitely get where you are coming from. I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder after the birth of my first child and those first two years were hell. I struggled so much and then I would feel guilty about feeling the way I did. Some ideas I have is that you try and find time to excercise. Excercise made a huge difference for me. I work full time as well and it is hard to fit it in, but I cannot tell you enough what a difference it made for me. It is hard to get it in, but even if you have to do a thirty minute DVD after your baby has gone to bed it will make a difference. Second, I would try listening to some relaxing CD's in the car. There are CD's with deep breathing excercises that you could do on your commute. As far as your relationship with your hubbie, I so get you! We are still struggling (my daughter is four) and the best thing we have found is to make sure that we spend some time together apart from our daughter. It is difficult to fit in to our already busy schedules, but it does help. We also go to marriage counseling once a month and it has helped. Things definitely aren't perfect, but they are better. Is it possible for you to get your husband to take over the finances? That's a lot for you to handle with your job. You can do this! Keep posting and feel free to personal message me. Take care!