My week is going really really bad. My thoughts are all jumbled up and I am having a hard time deciding what is true and what is false.
I got a letter yesterday from my Pdocs office saying he's quitting the clinic I go to and going to a different one. I saw him yesterday and asked him who he recommends and he asked me which ones I knew, I told him and he said well based on what you said I recommend X. Its a woman doctor. I don't like women doctors. I talked with my T about it and he told me which clinic my Pdoc is going to and asked if I would like to go there. I would rather stay with Dr.Clay because he is an awesome doctor and imho the best in my area. Despite the news that I can follow him I'm still in a funk. I got put on Lexapro yesterday and know that it will take awhile before it takes effect. I hate feeling this way. I just want to be able to function. Right now I am not. This week I think I missed more classes than I went to. I don't get out of bed until around 11:00 and go back to bed around 2 and sleep for a couple more hours get up and am back in bed around 8. I am sleeping my life away. I don't want to be like this I want to be happy, I want to love life, I just don't want to be like this anymore.

Janniebug