Hi Bakery. I hear you and have this thought almost every day of my life. My thought is "what do I have to do to make people (friends, family) pay attention to me, I need help, someone please just help me". I always think if I would do something drastic enough, off myself or at least try, then maybe people would open their eyes and see how much I hurt. This becomes my main way of thinking when I even ask and try and reach out to people for help but they just push it by the waysaid. Basically how i feel and think is unimportant to any one.

I think this is what I am hearing you say. Maybe not exactly but something like this. This is my life every day.