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I have recently come off a partial hospital stay (where you go 9-3 and do CBT therapy and are seen by a pdoc every day). I had a lot of problems with meds (some did not work, some made me really ill), so what is supposed to be a 5 day program turned into a 5 and half week stay for me. I was discharged last Tuesday. I am now on Lamictal and Trazadone, and that’s it. I went to see my pnurse/T today, and am feeling very down. We are upping my Lamictal, and will try lithium soon. We spent so much time talking about my meds that we didn’t have time to talk about anything else. I was looking forward to this appointment because I thought I could get some of what is running around inside my head out. My pnurse said she was glad I seemed more stable, and to see some of the sparkle back in my eyes. So how come when I left there, I sat in my car and cried? Stable. Yea, right. I am definitely better than I was. The depression is now manageable, I guess. I just feel crappy. Thanks for letting me vent.
BPGirl
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