Hey turquoisesea,

Ye, I hate it when that happens too. I am sick of not being able to cry and then eventually crying in front of people ie my counsellor. I feel like a complete idiot.

I have been writing in my journal and nothing is helping me. I feel I need someone to hit me or for something to happen to me for me to cry properly.

I do sooo much through out the day and I am shattered literally but still no sleep. It's like I just don't need sleep. Is this kinda like my feeling(s) of indestructablility and super hero feelings and powers??????????

Auch I have no idea and think I should just give it up and quit. Sick of this now