Thanks eskie. I tried the hot showers before. It does help with the depersonalization if the water is burning hot. Like right now, I'm sitting here so anxious I'm sick because my husband will be home in a few minutes. He's not mean or abusive, but he makes me nervous because I never do anything right according to him. I just don't know what else to do. i try so hard to be normal and like I used to be. But I can't and it's not good enough for him.