I was depressed and I went and tlaked to my teacher when I was in highschool...and he asked my parents if I liked pain or something...I dunno...my parents ahve done such stupid things ot me...like ignore me and not get to know me and not allow me ot be who i am...while the rest of the kids they actually paid attention to them...I was neglected...and I wasn't the problem causer..I stayed away from relaiotnhsip as a kid didn't trust anyone but my self...and relied only on me...I didn't wnat ot be close to anyone...to this day I'm scared of having friendships...and feeling like I won't be accepted or I'll be rediculed...I jsut ahven't had real love from anyone...I didn't know about love until I met my second bf and he showed me what it was to have someone care for you