Since you have to do an IVF to get pregnant anyways (do you?) then it would cost just as much to adopt. I would go with adoption, rather than having your own child.

Like others have mentioned, not only are there the risks of the medications, but the risk that your illness is genetic and could be passed on to your child.

I know that's one of the main reasons why I have chosen not to have any more children - but that's my decision, not yours.

You could also check into the surrogacy laws in your state, and if you feel comfortable, find a surrogate where you could implant your egg and your husband's sperm into the surrogate's body to carry the child to term. There is still the genetic risk that you could pass on the illness, since the baby carries your genes. Or you could get a donor egg.

Surrogacy might be a better option than adoption because some adoptive parents (birth parents) may not want to give their baby up to a "crazy woman."

You will want to be clear with the surrogate about your mental status from day one so there is no problem in the end and you do end up getting the baby. There was an actual news story about this, I think it ended up on Dr. Phil, about a surrogate who wouldn't turn over the babies because the adoptive mother had a psychotic illness - but the illness had been controlled for YEARS yet she still refused to hand over the children. Huge mess.

In other words...I don't know what to tell you!

My heart sometimes aches for another child, but I've realized it's just never going to happen for us.