I stayed away from here for about 2 weeks because I thought maybe the ups and downs on posts on PsychCentral in general was making me have trouble finding my own stability. It wasn't, which I am happy about b/c i like being on here, but I really need something to happen here. I talked to my pdoc about maybe going to a sub-acute or residential treatment program and he basically thought it's a crock of crap b/c they are charging you all that money and they aren't going to be able to get to know you, blah, blah, blah. I figure if it didn't work, then the programs wouldn't be listed in the top 100 treatment centers by US News and World Report. He said 30 day treatment is not even long enough for addiction treatment let alone psychiatric treatment. My point is that I am not thinking I'm going to be there and be cured, but having therapy 8-10 hours per day, appt with pdoc 2-4 times weekly... i think that would give me some good tools to go forward (just don't know if it's worth $40,000+). That's his point. Why spend the money if it may not work?

Ugh... so now I don't know what to do... seeing him every 2 weeks is not cutting it... taking too long... I'm becoming more anxious and more unstable.... moody, violent, forgetful, and all I can do is sleep when I'm not at work (and I fall asleep while driving sometimes). I haven't seen my T in over a month b/c she has been reviewing stuff for an audit. UGH... okay... done venting... sorry but I am so darn frustrated.......