LOl you both made me laugh...

Bloom maybe you are on to something.. I think I like to 'fix' other people problems and make everyone happy (yes have gone through that in therapy..and sort of resolved it.. - I am doing more things for me now than ever before rather than focusing on others happiness.)

There was just something about Richard in the end.. a spark that doesn't seem to want to die. Not like the whole Mark thing.. that was dead in the end anyway really.. we were not having fun together anymore..
With Richard it was exciting and I wanted to see him every minute of the day... am sure it was mainly an attraction but his mind facinated me as well.. he seems mature for only 25.. lived in a few different places and had lots of life experience..
I just feel that I let it slip away because at the time he wanted a relationship i was still waiting for Mark to make up his mind..

I'm happy enough for the moment and I figure there is a plan out there for me where I'll find the perfect life.. as long as I'm not looking too hard ...