Well in case some of you did'nt read my thread in Genral Mental Health Issues, I'll give you a summary. I have had a crappy week and my husband is being a butthead about my panic and depression issues. He's embarrassed by them. And thinks because he has a physical illness and a job then I have nothing to complain about. Well tonight I kinda let him have it. I told him I'm sick and tired of feeling so alone. I have been having panic attacks and all he wants to do i tell me what I'm not doing for him. It does'nt matter if it's the house not getting cleaned or me not having a job he is on me about it 24/7. So I told him, in a nice and calm way, that I could'nt take it anymore. He was driving me crazy. I told him that he was inconsiderate and mean to me. And hurt my feelings alot. And he has'nt even asked me once how I have been since my best friend's death. No not once. But he has told me I needed to lose 40 lbs. After i got done with him he yelled at me. told me he did'nt have the luxurey of staying home all day doing nothing and he could'nt listen to my bull**** because he has a job and he has to work so he can take me places (he said that because I wanted to go to the fair but he said no because my panic attacks bother him) And how he wished I would get a job so I would know how he felt. I told him I wish you had PTSD so you knew how I felt (which I don't but I was hoping it would make him think, it did'nt) Then I told him if he did'nt learn how to listen to me and be a little more nicer about my issues then I would probably end up divorcing him. He quit talking to me. But I mean it. I'm tired of being made feel this way. I don't deserve this crap from him or anyone else. It pisses me off! I think I am gong to get a job just to show his arse up. The last time i had a job he accused me of not going to work and having an affair. All because that job was late on my paycheck and shorted me 3 hours. They made up for it on the next one though. He thinks that I should be able to control the way my mind thinks. I can't. i told him to try to control his Crohn's flares and see how that works. It don't and neither will controling my own mind. Anyway had to get that off my chest. He may not listen to what I say but he can't say I did'nt warn him when he comes home to an empty house. Cause I'm sick and tired.