After battling with moods, major anxiety and possible depression creeping in, I now get into a serious blow-up with my boyfriend around trust issues! I get accused of having an affair and he raises his hand to me, smashes an ashtray and runs me down in every possible way "I'm rubbish and he was stupid to take me back."

I just don't know what to do. I'm so emotionally detached, I cannot make decisions. I feel exhausted. I eventually left at 11:30 last night, as it wasn't safe for me to be there. Now I don't know if we're over, taking a short-term break, or if he expects me home tonight.
I feel guilty for having called a friend, not a close one, at 11:30 to spend the night there.
I'm just so over it!! I'm clinging to my PC family for strength, keeping myself busy by replying to threads here